Disturbing Dream 1-9-09

I clearly don't post enough on this thing, but such is life I suppose. If I was meant to be a writer, then I would be a writer. But I digress. The purpose of this post is that I had a very disturbing dream last night. I have been trying to practice remembering my dreams because I think there is much to be learned by our unconscious activities. Whether you believe in this or not, I think God speaks to us through our dreams. It's like our spirit is more alive then and trying to get something through to our physical self.

Anyway, here it is. I was locked-in somewhere with one other survivor, a female whom I can't remember. I watched the stalker kill people violently and figured, “I’m next.” As he approached me with the knife I didn’t even fight back. He began to press the tip of the knife just enough to break the skin of the roof of my mouth and then he collected blood in a small tin square container. But the corner seams of the container weren’t sealed and the blood slowly seeped out.

He became angry because I wasn’t filling it with enough blood quickly enough. He then had me open my mouth and he pressed the knife tip into my upper gum. I resisted, but he said to cooperate or it would be more painful. He jabbed the knife repeatedly into my gum and collected the blood. But it still wasn’t enough.

All this time I don't know what was happening to the woman, except she was understandably panicking and screaming. She really began to freak when the blood was seeping because she thought he would then want to hurt her in his anger.

I convinced him to give me the knife and I would cut myself to get the blood. I began cutting across my tongue, not too deeply, and dripping blood into the container. It was very slow, so I took the knife and poked it into the underside of my left forearm and twisted it. Blood came pouring out, but it was combined with a semi-clear gelatinous substance that I thought might be fat. I was afraid that, though I had enough blood now, it might be tainted with impurities. I awoke.

Weird indeed. I'll have to consider this as to what the meaning is.